so vividly so desperately

by Christian Schormann

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released October 15, 2013

Music & lyrics by Christian Schormann, except for the lyrics to Amen. Amen is a poem by James Baldwin, (c) 1983, 1985 by James Baldwin. Many thanks to the James Baldwin Estate for the permission to use the poem.

Instruments played and recorded by Christian Schormann, except for the saxophone solo on Amen, performed by Hans Rück many years ago.

Photos by Veronica Zidarich, back cover flower drawing by Mara Schormann. Thank you both for your never-ending support and patience.

Mastered by John McCaig, Seattle


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Track Name: so vividly so desperately
It's like I can see the storm
Rising behind your eyes
I can see these dark clouds form
Hear words that drain with the rain in the skies
The lightning cloud freezes your smile
I fear for your heart it is beating so hard
And you're gone for a while to that world that is coming apart

And I remember that dream oh so vividly
Remember these heart beats so fast so desperately
Over that ocean I hope you'll return to me too
Oh how I wish I could bear that cross for you
Track Name: silence
The wall I'm standing at is sweating
Feels my hand
Cold sweat is pouring down the trembling wall
Feels my uneasiness

Gently spoken words
Bent visibly
Whirling round my head
Not one sound but I hear
The silence of tears in my ears
Gently falling words
Melt silently
Whirling like snow in hot air

The wall I'm standing at is trembling
Takes my hand
Holds me and makes me still the sweating wall
Takes my uneasiness
Track Name: days in september
Some days it feels as if my skin just froze
I feel to cold to move to breathe to think
I feel that stream of seconds as it flows
A day that passes by like sticky ink

But then again there is that smile
It's heat and light and for that while
Your smile makes everything alright
A wondrous star that sets this night alight

Like shards of glass some days may cut my skin
I trace one cut with a light curious touch
Perhaps it feels we all pay for some sin
From an account that's overdrawn too much
Track Name: the consequences of chocolate
Frozen moonlight glitters in a tree
In your soul is where I want to be
Your eyes glow your eyes amaze
Sun and ice and hearts and days

Love you're a dream and you're a friend
Your smile touches your eyes shine
Fresh as dew in my world
And it's all I dream
You make me laugh you make me smile
Your smile touches your eyes shine
Rainbow dance in your eyes
And it's all I dream

Chocolate in a waiting room
Words make their way riding on a broom
Beauty and pride here she flies
I remember that first look in your eyes
Track Name: paint a flower in the sky
She smiles and says whenever I feel sick at night
My angel comes to me and takes me for a ride
To swim with dolphins sail around the moon or
Sing with butterflies or paint a flower in the sky

All men aboard she cries with stuffies in both hands
Her ship will sail where fairies dwell and dragons make a stand
She winks at us behind the glass I swear I saw it
Saw the light she touched the flower she paints in the sky